Scantly clad feeling so exposed

I see you with your burning eyes that emanate the power you bestow

I’m so frightened

My body shakes

Out of fear or anticipation

Which one I’m not sure

Perhaps both.

Your gaze alone brings me whimpering to my knees

Please do not be mad at me.

I am so meek so afraid

Lack of trust fills my pores

My body screams “Run! Danger! Danger!”

Yes my heart beats faster, wanting to get closer

I’m playing with fire and there is no chance of me not getting burned

I’m a foolish child playing in a dark alleyway

Dirty eyes watch me, surround me, fill me

I’m doing this to please you

Because you say it gives me a thrill

Because you say it’s best for me

You always know what’s best for me

I’d cut my own arm off if commanded

What good could come of such blind loyalty

None surely, I will be scarred forever

And so literally

You want to disfigure me

Make me your own grotesque little piece of art

And I’m allowing you so readily

I am foolish to think I can win your game

Slave Psychology!

I’m 16, I cannot compete with that

I will surely loose

Oh, what a fool I was

Why do I keep coming back to you

You say my heart knows I should belong to you

But my heart is not yours, is it?

Not yet, right?

My body has not been predestined to be mere property

Of a stranger or perhaps just one so strange

You take me by the neck and latch me to this collar

So literal so true

Owned

Every fiber of my visible and invisible presence is yours

“As it should be”

My body, heart, soul, and mind are no longer mine

Will they ever be again?

Sensation overwhelms me, nausea consumes

I want to vomit out your disease your infectious words

They’re so horribly lethal

Yet my heart races, the adrenaline pumps

Harder Harder

I’m going to suffocate in this intensity

Because I’m so afraid what you say just might be true